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January 2nd, 2006 (12:01 pm)


I may permanently move here.. it's just so cute~

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So this is the new year

January 1st, 2006 (08:01 am)
current mood: cold D:
current song: nooone

I rang in the New Year with Joey and his family. I had an awesome time. Everything from booty dancing 5yr olds to vodka and fruit punch~

*sighs* I really did have a lot of fun!

New Year's Rez:
+quit smoking
+get myself into an exercise routine
+eat way more healthy

BTW: I almost killed myself on one of those gazelle things last night, lmao!! I also played with a thigh master and a resistance band XDDDDDDDDDDDD

I'm gonna go watch gone with the wind again. OMG!!!! I decided to do what Morgan Spurlock (Super Size Me, "30 Days") did and watch the same movie 30 days in a row. I'm going to watch Gone With The Wind and see if I go absolutely nuts. I think it's gonna be hilarious! ;P


time: 1:50am.
time lapsed: 6hrs

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December 18th, 2005 (06:42 am)


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Please donate...

December 16th, 2005 (01:25 pm)

current mood: depressed
current song: Dir en Grey - Undecided

I need to get out of this town. It's killing me..

I have a job, but it doesn't pay enough. Please, donate securely through paypal and get me out of here..

thank you.. :'C

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Looking Into The Sky

November 28th, 2005 (08:48 am)
current song: The Faint - various tracks

Why Do You Want To Be A Suicide Girl?
I've come to the conclusion that I want to be a suicide girl. The only thing is... I'm unsure why. I don't know why I want to be one. On the application for modeling for them it asks you why you want to be a suicide girl. I'm scared I'll give the wrong answer or sound too goofy.

::Reasons for the Want of Suicidism::
+) to prove to anyone who's ever called me ugly that I am a bold and beautiful woman
+) to show that I am finally comfortable with myself and others
+) to finally belong to something
+) there's always been this inner little devil inside just aching to be a naughty girl on camera!
+) to have someone know my name and face

Of course there are the promotional aspects of being a Suicide Girl, but that goes unsaid. I want to be in this for me. Fuck, I want it to give this my all and join the other SGs in bringing pin up style modeling back. It's a totally great art form if you do it right. Not only that, but I'll still be able to model if I get more tattoos. That means a lot to me because I won't have to compromise my personal likes to be a model. Not to be cocky, but I think I can make it. I think I have what it takes :D
   Did I just write my reasons for wanting to be a Suicide Girl? Did I just do it without realizing? Whoa..!

   Anyway, I decided to apply when I reach my short term goal of 117lbs. I can do this- I know I can!

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The RunDown

November 19th, 2005 (11:55 am)
current song: Miyavi - various tracks

I haven't written in a while. I've been stricken with this evil food poisoning virus thing caused by a near fatal honeybun digestion or, should I say, indigestion. I was throwing up for three days straight and I still haven't stopped having... the d-word... *cries* I ate the honeybun last Sunday and got sick on Monday.

I celebrated my brithday on the 17th. I'm 21 now, can you believe it? It really snuck up on me. I wished for a new bike when I blew out my candles. Melissa took me to Clearwater Beach and we got a hotel room. We smoked and drank. I fell asleep (not passed out, lol~ I don't drink to get drunk) at 2:30 after making a big speech earlier that night that we would stay up all night and this and that, lol~ It was so much fun, even if I KO'd early ^^

I registered for my classes yesterday. I have English Comp I, Humanities I, Elementary Algebra (because I suck at math that bad), and I also have to take this crazy intro to computers course from 8am till 5pm on a Saturday. That course should be easy.. so should the rest. Just freshman courses, so no biggie. I expect to pass with flying colors. I want to get done so that I can graduate and go to Japan. I can't wait!!!!!

Today, I have to go check my balance at the bank. If I have enough, I may by some hair dye and extensions. I'm unsure if I should go pink or save that for when I lose more weight. i think that will be my reward: get to 110lbs, dye hair any color I want. yay! a reward system!

Oh~ I've decided to be a vegetarian. It's healthier for me and I need to get the toxins out of my body. No wonder why I'm always so sick...

I started cleaning my room. It's a hell hole, I tells ya! I'm getting rid of like.. everything. I'm only keeping the good stuff and the things I actually need. Other than that, it's going to some thrift service. They'll prolly throw away all the clothes I give them b/c they're so old and worn out!

I need new clothing and shoes.
I need a car.
I need a job.

Anyone wanna donate? I would like a car very much XD I'm planning on getting a used car that's in the $1000-$5500 range. If I can afford a VW, that'd be awesome, but my hopes are not up on that one. Just wishful thinking XD
My credit is so shitty, I bet. Getting a car loan will be hellascious. Bah, I'll get a new car one day. I'll take good care of it, too. It'll be like my baby~

Anyway, I'm going to get dressed and try to stomach some breakfast.

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November 17th, 2005 (04:03 am)
current song: Postal Service - We Become Silhouettes

I'm 21.. This is it.

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pictures of my lip :)

November 9th, 2005 (09:00 am)

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How do I look?

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Thirty-Seven Hours

October 31st, 2005 (08:00 am)
current song: Steriogram - Tsunami

I am so proud of myself! I'll let my weight ticker do the talking for me :)

I'm 131lbs. When I Started my fasting thirty-seven hours ago, I was 139. I'll be thin in no time! Imagine! Nearly ten pounds in a day!

I feel almost liberated. I feel like the worst is over and that I should have nothing to fear. I feel like I am capable of controlling my life.

Things To Do Today
♥clean my room
♥finish up my two masterpieces
♥watch horror films all day

Well, I think I'll save the clean my room for later, lol! I'm too elated to clean ^_^ Although, I'm sure it would help the germs clear out faster, so maybe I will.

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S . O . U . R

October 30th, 2005 (09:38 pm)
current song: The Pixies - Gigantic

I vomited bile. It looked like white foam.

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